falling in love, daily

i fall in love with ease and i dont mind in the least   i fear not the repercussions i fall in love with all the children of all the guests that i meet  on our rotation   their parent— i fall in love with their hope  ...

a self-imposed "thesis" of sorts

  for the last 3 years i've been studying love, on purpose i had to wonder and understand why i would spend nearly 3 years engaged and not move forward to being married i first started watching and studying love when i was divorced 10 years...

i couldn't read you

what i realized over the past several weeks, in hindsight, is i couldn't read you. and that drove me crazy. other than what you wrote me, and i believed to be true: "compliments like painting hang on her wall" other than your occasional smile—i...

i feel safe with you [felt]

I feel safe with you More so than I have with any stranger, new to me person, in a very long time. Not because we are similar soulmates [i hate that word] but because we are not. We couldn't be more opposite. When I met you at the bar I was my...

its friday_i'm in love {30} - belated

The tips of my fine  Long fingers Considering The thought of your Strong broad Shoulders Sturdiness Cause me to pause Dressed in what  Feels right Coated in what Feels tight I hold my breath Without notice Whoosh Gawd I want you In more...

I sat_slightly

I sat slightly cornered Sharing your plate  of opinions  I wanted you But I shan't  Can't have you I sit beside you  Wanting But I shouldn't I sat in the corner Sharing my life  You opening yours In its farrowing  Unfair to me That I might have...

Talking to Herself

Talking to herself About a heighten sense of Insecurity She raises a good point she no longer knew She—Happenstances Brightly lit Tightly, firmly gripped She challenged herself And got mad at others Disturbing her The phone telling she had made...

brusk—when all i want is ease

fear not, the patience i suddenly and oddly have for you i know it may not feel so but it is so   read not, my jumping to conclusions and skipping around subjects to change as anything but my nervousness i sometimes have about you ...

shyness 101 - observation

shyness is a skin we're in temporarily  or for a space and time while we are "growing" or maybe not "growing"   meaning we can be growing in shy skin but its not necessarily healthy to stay there   ya know?   ...

pirates, we are

your deviant traits and strong held beliefs reminded me of me, scared me.   the one who feels too old in a workplace that no longer really cares because they can't capture her and hold her hostage.     thankfully, i'm...

getting to know me

    never telling me what to do  or how to feel   talking only of himself  and his life experiences   i want to sit and feel his presence ingest his words breath out some of his angst   when he pauses i explain my...

angst

it is so very hard so very difficult so very heart consuming   not  to  be  loved

its friday——I'm in love [29]

i can get passed this i gotta get passed this age this number....   freshly open   a perfect blend   so cliche   they say     deep dark   red   but light    in nature     how he...

from how far

she was gone and she is back and she's here and she wonders you can see   it—   but what she wonders we won't know until  she shares   because for us to assume is unfair and yet— when or what we...

second chance at no chance in hell

leaving her  broken billowed and just before poor of soul   he just stopped speaking to her   funny thing about that not talking to someone   its what he did so often while living in their life while...

its friday——I'm in love [28]

  Dear god—what happened You seamingly passed the Test Of my fine delineation Broken all My Rules New Rules   I mean You drew me in Slowly Sweetly With all the right words Doses of situations And sayings of...

[my] humble perspective-{1}

PER SPEC TIVE   is speculative   it is all about  how we break things down   how we tear them apart how we view them together   "…step back and put on a wider lens…"*   how we "hear" how we "see"...

a nagging leave need - {1}

i gotta nagging leave need telling me to go walk away  and settle me   i gotta nagging leave need and it won't speak loud, or stand up for itself it just sits   and it hurts and it beats itself up   i gotta...

Teach Me

  Teach me  To listen  And dont stop til You do Teach me silence  And wordlessness  And bucket lists  And flying aero planes Teach me  Until the day I die Reach me  In that way Whether you're in my life  Tell me why  And stay  Tell me why...

its friday——I'm in love [27]

  as you show me again and again   what its like to be pleased nearly never letting me  up for air   hmmmm   its a long overdue beating of love i must take    as you prepare  a third round kissing me...