Trying so hard to love [1]

Trying so hard to be a student  Of love and life   Recognizing is half the battle   I often times when writing to a loved one  will insert lyrics to a song That help me focus on the topic of love I want to share with them   ...

Are you afraid of me

Are you afraid of me Or are you strong enough To be my man   Like spiders He is more afraid Of us than we are of him   Over time  It became the reverse   I started growing In his fear of me   I was sprouting...

It's Friday—I'm in Love [love-hate]

This is about cake   My soul aches As does my mind   Yes, this is about cake   Something  About the way Coco Enters The room And stays —  She– Like an aching force Forces The WHITE of  Pasty stale Flour out...

It's Friday—I'm in love {31}

I revel  In chaos   A hot mess Of things    Delightfully Thick Dark and Rich   It's no secret I like men of color   Yet discerning—I remain In return You must respect My trepidation And...

Happy Life

“If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things.”  Albert Einstein

Panopticon

    I have built an empire Of a person I no longer Care for   I no longer have the strength  To build a home    I have been hiding my internal walls that stand upon my sturdy foundation for far too long   My structural...

Come now

I'll grasp I touch I tease   I need A grasp A touch  A tease   A moment in which  a pleasant will please   Her torturous Nympho O-Matic Needs   Purposeful Pleasure Matic Symptomatic Prophylactic...

Quagmire

Lost in a puddle of words Of my very own words Of my very own disturbing words   Drenched  Entrenched and Clenched So tight   A puddle Filled with milky Dense chocolate colored Mire Chocolate—not a healer  Like a...

Too Burnt

Too burnt Too long   Will he ever  Again Arrive   Arrive  At knowing A love that is glowing Readied and wanting  With less fear Less angst   Or will the will Of singe  Take Burn  Too deep   ...

The once–Oh so enamored

And she loves She loves the depths of her enamored betrayal That love of unlove Does one know what she means The depths of knowing what it feels To feel  Unlove It's cold     And          D i s t a n t Distained The love of the untrained  No ...

You Painted My Truth

You painted My Truth When Truth needed painting When I found I was flailing  About in still waters Censoring and Buffering  Beyond My Blue Scales and Tail   You painted Me intriguing One I knew Me to be You painted Me...

I just gotta breathe

I gotta breathe And I can't breathe   I gotta breathe And I can't conceive    What is all that angst in me what is all that angsts me to see The unbreathable in me   I can't breathe a breath to save my life I maybe...

You might have heard me say this before

I love watching love. Especially yesterday. I love asking what others have planned for their loves ones. The excitement of the one receiving, its what I like to refer to as love in action a title to a Todd Rungren song from my teens. I spent the...

Gullible's Travels

severe sincere subtly man i pul a tion   ahem   you know who you are [deceptive] and yet you still do it   you know who i am kind and decent possibly reverent   and yet you still do it...

her love of going unsteady

as she brush past never lifting an eye thinking i just gotta    he watched  with full gaze her intent   her just gotta intent   i got things to do intent   he loved this about her and he barely even  ...

acid love - [1]

its red quite full of red seeping juice of bright red full of deep acid red   he fears red intense feelings sense feelings send reeling said red   but there are seeds for growing what can i do but turn from...

falling in love, daily

i fall in love with ease and i dont mind in the least   i fear not the repercussions i fall in love with all the children of all the guests that i meet  on our rotation   their parent— i fall in love with their hope  ...

a self-imposed "thesis" of sorts

  for the last 3 years i've been studying love, on purpose i had to wonder and understand why i would spend nearly 3 years engaged and not move forward to being married i first started watching and studying love when i was divorced 10 years...