its friday_i'm in love {21.9}

do NOT whine she has always ALWAYS told herself   get back in the car and drive   he was a crush that's all— just a crush nothing else—   convincing herself  out of like  of him  

it's friday i'm in love {21.12}

she realized you can't have love unless you let it   somedays she could shake shame or so she tried with all her might and when she did she could love   she once again was wanting she once again ...

on the edge of her belief {1}

i'm lost right here in my own backyard   every step seems even further away from her ripped screened door   and then i turn around and here i am  in a room full of hopefuls   it's...

It's Friday I'm in love {21.8}

Smile gently  She thought Careful not to Share her honest words Anymore Smile only slightly She worried  When in His presence And now she was To be conscious When he was in the room Watching herself Carefully ...

poster child

  who's gonna fight the fight i got in me   - - - - - - - -     whose body's  gonna fight  the fight i got  in me

solutions to saturday

Languishing in morning. Stretching pheromones on into noon. Thinking of dining on Sultry. Grazing contemptuously and naked— resolving her dessert. She eventually feeds fully.

kindness & obstinacy

it was in her words and her eyes her kindness  radiating outward   she was a beauty thru and thru   her skin somewhat average her height the same   her light  however  far from mundane   ...

contra-internal-nastiness

protect thy own protect thy own heart where her shield  get it and wear her bravely   chin up shoulders back sitting alone again   terrible why would they leave you alone like–all alone   ...

and then take

    she felt taken       no more bliss of the morning    of her soul inviting her to lunch     divided and conquered   her bravery split in two   leaving her with anguish and favoritism  ...

its friday_i'm in love {21.6}

toggling within her was her feeling warmth and ready reduced to simmer nearly sad and bland   where had she gone  this regularly feisty one waiting to expose her crush of him   where was this one she...

its friday_i'm in love {21.5}

she started to become undone   she unraveled in her revival of self   waning unwanted-ly she waned     hurtful painful wane   upon waiting  for his unrequitedness  

its friday_i'm in love {21.4}

again  she didn't do what she normally does   she was unsure what to do or not to do so instead she became undone and she waited again for his move   is this her is this who is this the girl she was...

its friday_i'm in love {21.2}

she sat thinking dreaming  his face   she sat looking  squinting to remember  his hands  strong creative and quiet hands   she sat waiting pausing on how do i warn him without warning him ...

marry me_please

Just for fun— if you had the opportunity to know a celebrity or famous person (in history) living or dead  to the point of wanting to marry them who would it be? and why.  who do you admire enough to consider them...

garbage plate

for those of you who don't know...  this is what we folks in a small place in upstate NY call  a garbage plate... if you have ever had one "fresh" its crazy good and bad ... this particular plate is a cheeseburger plate... hot sauce,...

RANT 1 (hopefully not a series)

i always tell my children that hate is a harsh word i actually tell many people that, whenever i hear the word and yet... that word just slipped out my mouth in an instant moments ago full blown and vigorously i said in front...