i'm a little lost

  i'm a little lost but almost always [there] brave   it is the love that i feel the devotion that i [nearly] crave   and the fear i contain which pushes you away [as if to] pave   yes, i'm a little lost right...

blame_two

    yes   tell me please   because   blame  is messy   why—when it may not be ours  do we take it  

benefit of a doubt

    as a planned friend—and  a person who came to believe in you i gave you the benefit of the doubt and you kept taking it   those days with pistols shaking you looked on and seemed genuine you appeared to comprehend the...

blame_one

  taking  the blame  for  things  that  aren't ours  to take blame  for   and  then THEY let us   who are they to let us   tell me please         © 2011 DFTC

a worried heart {1}

when she finds herself outside herself where she finds herself consistently constantly   she thinks she finds  she is focused further   truthfully she is not at all   it is just her worried heart trying...

no logic

      why would i      [ when there are    so many rational rationales   several explicable explanations   and every viable verse of understanding ]     find   myself   in    love   ...

upon the healing tree [2]

it is with shame and disarray that i see through the leaves just what damage has been done   to my own soul how i have hurt myself by my unkindness   where does this come from from the deeply critical critic within me  ...

thanks_giving

i can't breathe i want to fade into black, blue and brown   fade into my room where no one sees me where no one minds that i left     and takes no offense because i've had to turn down an offer for visit     [self...

what will it take to keep you here

  don't leave her out standing in the cold dont leave her out there standing in her own cold   remember what it feels like to be included [to be accepted]   perfectionism independence on  her own all alone     ...

giddy up_MFer

  saddle my insecurities like the jackass you are   bridle me so i look straight ahead while you paint my deep dark bleak picture   adjust the reins of my failures prod my weaknesses point me in a spiraling downward...

learning to miss you

From the moment We said goodbye You first—with your angry Misunderstanding Your terse sarcasm Blatant disregard for my feelings Me next—with my sudden Understanding I no longer need you As I was no longer in love With...

i am not afraid of you [part A]

it is within me you encompass me   it is within me i fear you as if you will storm  my walls and crush my soul my mere interior none of which is true none of which is at all mere from your view you see it as such it is...

why is she unloved

  why is she left unloved she asks   she asks herself  daily   where did his love of me disappear to so fast   why has he turned away ignored some questions even   left her standing there alone  at the...

its friday_i'm in love {17}

the ever clear beauty of you sits deep within resides in your soul   soul deep you are a man of hurt and  maximum pain   you feel and see things others miss you once made me feel vulnerable and you held me there ...

sexy tuesday

the warmth of her breathe by your ear   the gentle press of her hand when you are near   as if to say come now, no where near   and yet—then the gentle tug on your shirt bringing you closer to her ear so she can...

tumble_she will fall [1]

the taller the building— the further she falls   the stronger the fortress the more abrasive the necessary ammunition   what more will it take for you to take her down as we all know now that is your goal   tumble_...

its friday_i'm in love {16}

whether or not this day  the sun does shine you will be mine   walking through you basking in the sun of you the wrapped up warmth of you   wavering in the smell of you feeling the crisp coolness of you i simply adore...

and through

love on love true love deep and through   capture a sense of life beyond you   when looking at others embrace their view if you dare   love on love true love deep and through   capture a sense of...

slowly sexy two_sday

pull me in close as i resist you near   oh how i love  when you do this [ dear ]   we pretend we don't like we pretend we don't care all of the while i feel  your deep stare   the...

"you are a wonderful mess"

Martin Sheen and Emilio Estevez   8 plus minutes... but what a nice perspective on the reality of a family   http://www.cbsnews.com/video/watch/?id=7385644n   i love this show: The Sunday Morning Show in which this ran

Oh Said the Monkey

I don't like people.  Staunchly said, the Giraffe.   Good thing your head is up there. Said the Monkey, or else you might open your eyes and see what I see.   And what is that? Asked the Giraffe.   Its all in your...